RABBIT RABBIT RABBIT
Anyone else? I learned that from Ali On The Run and now I repeat it over and over in my head for luck on the first day of every month.
About a month ago I had all but given up on 2017. I don’t like to wish time away, but I was done in every sense and feeling of the word. There’s only so much pushing a push animal can do before he or she breaks, and the day I got into a car accident just weeks after my bike accident was so that day.
I started feeling like I didn’t belong here. Every time things began evening out, I’d hit (heh) a roadblock. And after each one I’d crawl into bed at night defeated and devastated, wondering why I’d made the move in the first place.
Not a whole lot about this year felt right other than realizing my dream of packing up and heading west. But even that was an enormous challenge.
Then Friendsgiving happened. And some of my pieces started finding their way back to each other. I’m living with family, I’ve made really great friends, and my yeses outweighed my noes for the first time in a long time.
And then. And then. I met someone.
An amazing someone. The kind of someone who makes you feel like a someone and want to be a someone and treat yourself and talk to yourself like a someone and even—for the first time in a long time—love the someone you already are.
What a fantastic f*cking feeling.
Bringing back flare jeans and turtlenecks.
Excuse my language. But my heart is in the right place.
I stopped picking myself for so long that it’s a little jarring when someone else does. It’s the knock back down to earth I needed. I have so much to say about this. Another post.
There’s only one month left this year, but if there is one thing my favorite days of cross country has taught me, it’s that I finish strong. And if Thursday night was any indication for how the next 30 days will go, I think we’re going to make it.
Was that the longest intro ever for Push Picks? The only things I have to share are my outfit details. Because, before this magical date, I spent $150 when I realized I suddenly hated everything in my closet and I made an emergency run to Target and TJ Maxx.
Jeans are by NYDJ. (Exact)
So, I don’t know. This Push Picks wasn’t what I planned but I guess that follows the theme of this whole year. So iz ok.
Have a great weekend. And Push On, PUSH ANIMALS >>>